I've Been thru alot you would be suprised i've gone thru heartbreak, Triumph, & so much more. After my last relationship I felt like when it ended I was not meant to love again. I thought that love was truely blind & that I could never let someone in again.
Then I Met Wayne someone who leaves me awestruck I get butterflys everytime he holds my hand. I could look into his bright brown eyes for hrs & just get lost in them since they sparkele so bright. Truth is maybe I didn't know love intill I met him, I love running my fingers thru his hair, I adore his long kisses the way when he tells me he loves me I feel like I'm walking on clouds, or I feel like no harm will come to me if I'm laying in his arms, or how my gaurd has been completely gone & I allowed myself to be in love truely be in love, I dont normally talk so openly about how I feel but that boy stole my heart & gave me a new found light that I thought no longer exsited, Thank you babe told you I'd write a blog =p u mean everything to me, I don't see myself with anyone but you.
Shadderdglass ie Jenna
Monday, November 30, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Revolations
Revelations
Bitch please some of my twitter followers know, most of them don't. I wanna explain some things with everyone I'm tired of hiding who I am in the shadows, it truely hurts to much.
Wow where do I begun with these revelations about my true self, why am I doing it now my reasons are I am goon thru somethings & I need a place to vent sometimes daily, I'm also not ashamed who I am, I'm just me.
First off I need everyone to understand I never meant to decive anyone In fact yes I haven't corrected anyone but that doesn't mean shit..I'm gonna get real deep here & really personal if ur not ready to maybe shed some tears or so forth stop reading now, those who want to know who I am better by all means proceed, you've been warned bitches don't judge respect
The beguning..
December 29th 1982 I was born 26 years ago to that date. My life never started out simple in fact since I was a baby I've had over 23 operations, my twin sister died at birth. I only have one kidney the right one to be exact the other one was polsitic it was removed at birth, I've had contuinous health problems thru the years.
From a very early age, I knew I wasn't quite right I guess now is a good time to say, I was born joshua michael..I wasn't suppoused to make it 10 yet ironicly I'm stil ticking not the healthiest person out there but at least I'm alive. I always used to lean more towards the femmine things in life you know barbies, dolls, make up, house,dresses etc.
I always felt like something wasn't quite right inside me, always wanted to be a girl for Halloween, my life was pretty normal & gender balenced I played hockey, took ballet & figer skateing and had a wicked childhood, it wasn't till my teens and certain hormone/body changes did I realiase certain things were not quite right.
I found myself attracted to guys, I also found myself wondering why certain changed were in girls but not me. I started to really resent my body/ I also tryed to shrug everything off & be a boy..I remember I was bout 13 had guys I'd talk to flirt with online pretend I was a girl. Thought maybe I was gay i lived the homosexual lifestyle till I was 21 I played it straight til I was 17 in fact learned bout drag and shif thought maybe I was jus a gay drag queen.
I quickly realized that wasn't the case and when I was 20 I decided it was time to take action towards finding the real me which brings me to the Birth of Jenna Joryden...(last name is confidential) lol I've been on hormones liveing fulltime as a women for the last 2 years, my life is pretty normal I'm in a healthy relationship I'm jus waiting for my last surgury,
Not gonna lie the days are getting harder wakeing up to a wicked body with something extra isn't my ideal, I find myself over emotioal these days. I've Been thru bell & back & I'm learning so much about everything I'm supriseinly greatful for the life I've had not alot of ppl see both sides, lifes to short be who you are don't let Anyone define you just be you much love
Shadderdglass
Bitch please some of my twitter followers know, most of them don't. I wanna explain some things with everyone I'm tired of hiding who I am in the shadows, it truely hurts to much.
Wow where do I begun with these revelations about my true self, why am I doing it now my reasons are I am goon thru somethings & I need a place to vent sometimes daily, I'm also not ashamed who I am, I'm just me.
First off I need everyone to understand I never meant to decive anyone In fact yes I haven't corrected anyone but that doesn't mean shit..I'm gonna get real deep here & really personal if ur not ready to maybe shed some tears or so forth stop reading now, those who want to know who I am better by all means proceed, you've been warned bitches don't judge respect
The beguning..
December 29th 1982 I was born 26 years ago to that date. My life never started out simple in fact since I was a baby I've had over 23 operations, my twin sister died at birth. I only have one kidney the right one to be exact the other one was polsitic it was removed at birth, I've had contuinous health problems thru the years.
From a very early age, I knew I wasn't quite right I guess now is a good time to say, I was born joshua michael..I wasn't suppoused to make it 10 yet ironicly I'm stil ticking not the healthiest person out there but at least I'm alive. I always used to lean more towards the femmine things in life you know barbies, dolls, make up, house,dresses etc.
I always felt like something wasn't quite right inside me, always wanted to be a girl for Halloween, my life was pretty normal & gender balenced I played hockey, took ballet & figer skateing and had a wicked childhood, it wasn't till my teens and certain hormone/body changes did I realiase certain things were not quite right.
I found myself attracted to guys, I also found myself wondering why certain changed were in girls but not me. I started to really resent my body/ I also tryed to shrug everything off & be a boy..I remember I was bout 13 had guys I'd talk to flirt with online pretend I was a girl. Thought maybe I was gay i lived the homosexual lifestyle till I was 21 I played it straight til I was 17 in fact learned bout drag and shif thought maybe I was jus a gay drag queen.
I quickly realized that wasn't the case and when I was 20 I decided it was time to take action towards finding the real me which brings me to the Birth of Jenna Joryden...(last name is confidential) lol I've been on hormones liveing fulltime as a women for the last 2 years, my life is pretty normal I'm in a healthy relationship I'm jus waiting for my last surgury,
Not gonna lie the days are getting harder wakeing up to a wicked body with something extra isn't my ideal, I find myself over emotioal these days. I've Been thru bell & back & I'm learning so much about everything I'm supriseinly greatful for the life I've had not alot of ppl see both sides, lifes to short be who you are don't let Anyone define you just be you much love
Shadderdglass
My introduction
So I'm adempting a blog it's gonna be a wild ride,
I'm going thru so much right now learning to rediscover the person I am & becomeing, Bitch please
i've learned alot, I'm only humen Im 26 I turn 27 on december 29th Bitches better remember that ;) I work as a make up artist I aspire to launch my own line sometime in the near future. Music I love Britney Spears in my blog ur gonna learn alot about why I have such a love for her. Other music tastes include Adam Lambert, Pink, Faber Drive, Rev Theory, Cassidy Haley etc that's only a few. I love pro wrestling my fav wrestler is Randy Orton & The Undertaker. My fav colour is Pink, Makeup Brand is Smashbox Cosmetics. This is jus a quick intro stay tuned becuse In the next few days I'm gonna confess something major
ps I love Twitter u can follow me at Http://Twitter.com/ShadderdGlass
psps this will also contain some wicked makeup tips & latest Britney news
Bitch Please it's shadderdglass
I'm going thru so much right now learning to rediscover the person I am & becomeing, Bitch please
i've learned alot, I'm only humen Im 26 I turn 27 on december 29th Bitches better remember that ;) I work as a make up artist I aspire to launch my own line sometime in the near future. Music I love Britney Spears in my blog ur gonna learn alot about why I have such a love for her. Other music tastes include Adam Lambert, Pink, Faber Drive, Rev Theory, Cassidy Haley etc that's only a few. I love pro wrestling my fav wrestler is Randy Orton & The Undertaker. My fav colour is Pink, Makeup Brand is Smashbox Cosmetics. This is jus a quick intro stay tuned becuse In the next few days I'm gonna confess something major
ps I love Twitter u can follow me at Http://Twitter.com/ShadderdGlass
psps this will also contain some wicked makeup tips & latest Britney news
Bitch Please it's shadderdglass
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